On Living With Poor Life Choices
I won't go into great detail on the choices I made but let me just say that the reason I had been away led me to making a wrong decision. Not the end of the world stuff where I am left unable to function but more just left feeling really sad...and lonely. And I saw it coming. Yes, it involved a man. How did you ever guess? But my lack of thinking the situation out has taught me a lot about myself the last month or so. And the good thing about poor life choices is they lead me closer to that woman I know is inside of me. She has already broken free in so many areas but there is a still part of her that is "needy". It is a most unattractive quality isn't it? Then again where do needy and the need to love and be loved collide? Let's face it. I want to meet my soulmate; my best friend. I want to feel loved and show it too. I don't want what the movies have but I certainly know I want what Jezzy and Curtis & Ellen have. We are not talking romantic sunbursts but true love and commitment. Too much to ask? I think not. In fact I know it is not!
Tell me what you think. Are you jaded and believe it is all bullshit? Are you romantic to the core and believe that you are going to be swept off your feet? ( I also believe that one day I am going to sweep him, that unknown stranger, off his feet!) I know I am mostly jaded but there is a small corner that is in my heart that believes it will happen one day.