I don't know where to even start this post. I haven't felt this low and sad for such a long time. I won't go into details of what happened because that will just make me feel worse. I am feeling so totally useless, fat, ugly and rejected. I keep crying and feel like I have lost my way. I hate this feeling because it is so hard to get out of it.
To top it off I keep having there dreams that my nana is alive and know she is going to die and I have no power to stop it. I wake up crying and missing her so much. It has been almost 2 years since she died and I am not any closer to accepting her death than when she died. If anything it hurts more. I miss her more now. I don't know what to do.