Norbert's Pechant for Milk
I am such a party animal. I had the ultimate New Year's Bash and...stayed home. I didn't do a thing. Well, I did make my tasty chicken wings and forced myself to stay up until midnight but other than that I didn't do anything more exciting than the laundry.
I have come to the conclusion that I need to get my ass back to Al Anon. I realized over Christmas that I am still reacting in ways that are not healthy. I had an alcoholic parent and I was not given the proper tools to deal with my life. ( Let me stress that I am not blamimg my parent. He did his best and I love him very, very much. He could not give me the right tools to deal with life because he didn't have them for himself.) I have learned a lot of healthier ways of coping and dealing with people through Al Anon but I have so far to go. I had stopped going to meetings because they all start at 8:00 and my kids go to bed at 8:00. Fortunately, I have found a meeting that meets in the afternoon on my day off.
I am going back to work on Wednesday and I am trying to be grateful for a job that I enjoy and a really nice group of co-workers but I am just not ready to go back. I will take my holidays over Christmas again next year but it is by no means a restful holiday. I don't want to go back. I feel like crying.