An Open Post

I have been working on a project on Prince Edward Island with Boy -W for a better part of the day. I am now tired and achy and just want to go to bed. But Noooo. I signed myself up as Secretary for Girl-N's dancing group. Why did I do that? And why the hell does it start at 7:30? All of these people have kids and kids go to bed at 8:30. Sheesh. I am only staying an hour then leaving!
I have injured by shoulder and it damn well hurts. I have gone to the Osteopath but it still hurts.
Oh yes. I have a damn Pap tomorrow. Joy. I hate that. You feel all creepy and gross for the rest of the day.

Update - Maybe it is just me. Do you all ever feel like everyone else in the world is "getting it" but you are just walking around clueless? I have felt that way a good part of my life. I am not meaning to be sarcastic or silly here. I really feel that way a lot of the time. I went to this thing for my daughter's dancing and all the other mom's know about all the dances and competitions and technical stuff and I have no idea what anyone is talking about. I try to understand and keep up but everything just seems to fly past me.

And I feel stupid in those moments.

"People like me feel little and lost and ugly and dispensable... It's like every morning I wake up and I fail, and I look around and anybody, anybody can pull it off, but somehow I can't. And I know, I know I have everything, and I'm still miserable and it's pathetic. I know it's pathetic. No matter how hard I try, something about me will never be enough..."

Michelle Pheiffer as Rita Harrison in I am Sam