Every single one of your comments brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much. I love each of you and feel honoured that you took the time to send encouragement my way.
I have decided one thing since my last post. On January 2nd I am going to call the college and make an appointment with the admissions counselor. The worst I can be told is no which will put me in the same boat I am in now. I have to do something. I have to at least try.
My concerns at this time is the inability to get a student loan after declaring bankruptcy after buying a leaky condo. There is no way around this one. I simply do not qualify. My other concern is how I can afford to live and go to school at the same time. The bank who holds my mortgage (they let me keep the leaky condo being the nice people that they are) and other bill collectors simply do not accept that I am working to improve myself and will pay when I am done school as a viable reason not to pay them. In fact, as of yet, I have never heard of a valid excuse to get out of paying bills!
However, I am going to talk to the college. I want to possibly take the Medical Transcription course. I am already a Resident Care Attendant but I am not able to do the shift work hours that they require. I graduated with a 4.0 in that course so I know will have no problems with being admitted. I have to trust God on this one. I know He doesn't want me to be this unhappy.