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Saturday, April 30, 2005

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I woke up this morning around 4:00 so I am crabby. Because I am crabby I will give you my opinion on this.
Oh you poor rich girl. You got cold feet. Awww. What a stupid rich bitch you are! You caused you family, friends and fiance unbelievable stress and heartache. You have taken the police away from real cases to look for you. I won't go into the amount of money this has taken. You have obviously been raised to only think of yourself and not consider the feelings of anyone. I hope you fiance dumps your sorry rich ass because you don't deserve him. I hope you get put up on charges and have to pay back every penny that this investigation has cost. I also hope you have to do a few thousand hours at a shelter for abused women and learn a real understanding of women that have lived through horrific nightmares like the one you alleged.

Oh ya. Put on some fucking weight. You are too thin!

A later in the day update : I would like to know who your rich daddy is because the police are apparently NOT pressing charges! It is women like you that make these up this ridiculous tales that makes people doubt the real pleas of women in dangerous situations.

Friday, April 29, 2005

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Didn't post yesterday because I was sick with some gastrointestinal ailment. It stared at work. Not a nice place to have diarrhea! I made it through the day and by 5:00 started getting nauseated too. I spent the night on the biffy.
I did manage to read a few blogs. So many of you going through difficult times and please know I love you and pray for all of you. I have always been a person that likes to fix everyone's problems. My heart aches for each of you.

Not much going on the home front today. It is my day off so I need to clean my pig pen. Right now Girl-N is putting every barrette she owns in my hair. Will post more later.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

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Yes. Another new look. I am so unsettled. I come up with something and three days later I hate it. Oh well. This is the latest new look.

Nothing much to post. Almost done my taxes. Have to work tomorrow even though it is my day off. That is all.

Argh! I hate this too but I am too tired to change it.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

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Every morning the alarm goes off at 7:00 a.m. and every morning I tell myself I will go to bed earlier that night. I never do because from 8:30 on is the only time in the day I have to myself. No work phones. No clients. Kids are in bed sleeping. No boyfriend. The cat is even spending time with the gerbil. I like this time alone! So tonight I promise myself that I will go to bed early and get a good night's sleep. But I know I won't.

Monday, April 25, 2005

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My cat likes to go for car rides. I found this out by accident when we were going to the vet one day. He was in a box and I decided to let him look out and he crawled out of the box. He went to the back window and laid down. Now I just have to ask him if he wants to go in the car and he runs to the door. People drive by and laugh at him. It makes me happy to see people smile at something so insignificant as a cat in a car.

I am working on my taxes tonight so that is all. I think I may have to pay. *sigh

Saturday, April 23, 2005

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Sometimes I lead a life that is so very uninteresting. The highlight of today was coloring my hair with Nice & Easy 106a. I think it will be the last time I will be colouring it before I shave it. I hope so anyway. My hair grows fast and I can't be walking around with dark roots and those sticky up gray hairs. What is up with those anyway? It is like they are shouting to the world. This 34 year old woman has gray hair! Look at us! Here we are! Weeeeeeee!

I waxed my eyebrows yesterday. Grafdjsfh (replacement for naughty word) that hurts! I can't be walking around looking like a Sasquatch now can I?

Those of you that read my blog regularly know I shaved my legs last week. So now I have coloured my hair and waxed my eyebrows. If I can manage to stop wiping my nose with my sleeve I may just be able to go to Burger King! Yay!

Friday, April 22, 2005

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Can't remember if I have posted about his before but this is a good way to get your kids to help around the house. I was always asking the kids to help with cleaning but they never got much accomplished until we started doing "Magic Scrap". Magic Scrap can be anything that needs to be picked up, put away or straightened. You choose what it is (but don't tell them). The kids clean for a set time, say 20 minutes. The child that finds out what magic scrap is gets a prize. I am cheap so it is usually .25 cents. My kids get all excited about cleaning and ask me every 30 seconds if they found magic scrap yet. You can't tell them until the end of the set time or they will stop working. It works well for us!
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A quick post of something I saw this morning. I saw a foal that was probably less than a month old running around a farm yard by my kids school. It was bright and sunny and he was running all around his mom with his little spindly legs. He was SO cute! Made me and the kids laugh.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

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I went to the bank today to get money. On the wall it said that bank machines are now on the west wall. WTF? Where the hell is the west wall? I am trying to get my bearings and while looking around I see them to the left of me. Why didn't the sign just say bank machines are now located to the left! I guess the west wall sounds better than on the left.

Boy-W has just told me that he hates Angus because he attacked him. Angus can be very mean. He bites and scratches but I think he is just playing. Our first cat never bit or scratched so this is very different for us. My kids are very gentle with Angus so I know the cat is not being provoked. Sometimes the kids are just walking by and the cat will jump and scratch at their faces. Other times the kids are sitting and the cat will bite them. Any suggestions on how to deal with this?

It is income tax filing time and I haven't done mine yet. My taxes are fairly simple so I will do them tomorrow but taxes always put me in a foul mood.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

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Since I have nothing to say, I took this from my new friend Gypsy. Go say hi to her. She isn't feeling very good tonight.

First Name: Barbara
Were you named after anyone? My Great Grandma Barbara (of course!)
Do you wish on stars? Yes. And I believe that wishes come true.
When did you last cry? I cry all the time.
Do you like your handwriting? Not as much as I like my printing. I have such nice printing everyone at works gets me to fill out important documents. (Nice to be good at something!)

What is your favorite lunch meat? My mom's leftover turkey sandwiches.
What is your birth date? Sometime in 1971
What is your most embarrassing CD? Charlotte Church.
If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? Yes.
Are you a daredevil? No way.
Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Not since I was about 17.
Do looks matter? Yes and no.
Where is your second home? My Mom and Dad's.
Do you trust others easily? Too easily.
What was your favorite toy as a child? Holly Hobbie Oven!
What class in high school do you think was totally useless? Spanish
Do you have a journal? This is my journal silly
Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yes but just in fun. Never to hurt someone's feelings.
What are your nicknames? Barb
Would you bungee jump? NO! NO! NO!
Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Never.
Do you think that you are strong? Yes.
What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Kinda like sorbet better.
Shoe Size? 7
Red/pink? Pink! I love pink! It even sounds pink! Pink!
What is your least favorite thing about yourself? Something so bad I don't like talking about it.
Who do you miss most? Nana. She died one year ago on May 6. I love you Nana.
What color pants and shoes are you wearing right now? Wearing duck pyjamas and bare feet.
What are you listening to right now? My very old neighbors upstairs clomping around.
Last thing you ate? Swiss Chalet Chicken and fries.
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Pink!
What is the weather like right now? Nice spring evening.
Last person you talked to on the phone? My mom.
The first thing you notice about the opposite s#x? Eyes.
What is your Favorite Drink? Skim milk
Favorite Sport? swimming
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Nothing to say.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

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Very tired tonight. Work was Busy. I was buried in paperwork and I managed to unbury myself by the end of the day. Ok not entirely but I will finish up what I didn't do tomorrow morning. Then the mountain will start to grow again. A day in the life at my job.

Homework. I wish my kids didn't have homework because it really cuts into my time with them. I want to be able to go to the park with them or play a game but we never have time. I get home around 5:30, the kids get home from their dad's at 6:00. I make dinner, we eat. Homework, bath and bed. It would make sense if their dad did homework with him but he is a dufus at times. In the 2.5 years since we separated Boy-W has never had a bath or shower at his dad's. The kids don't brush their teeth when they are there. Every night they come home with candy or a slurpee right before supper. When they stay overnight they go to bed at 11:00 or later on school nights. As I said. A dufus sometimes. Yes. I am still bitter. Don't try to talk me out of it. Harrumph!

I am going to go have a hot bath. Au Revoir!

Monday, April 18, 2005

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What kind of dorky person wears black pants, black shoes and white socks? Me. That's who. I didn't have any clean black socks this morning so I wore white ones to work. I was conscious of them all day.

I have updated the blogs I am reading list. If you have me on your list please let me know so I can add you to mine. Thanks!

The science fair is on Thursday and Boy-W is doing this. It is very cool! Worth trying even just for fun!

Sunday, April 17, 2005

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Went to church this morning. It was very good! I have decided to "convert" for a lack of a better word to a more stable church. I think I have previously posted that my background is charismatic but I am looking for something that is going to focus on the Word and not the hype. So I got up early and took the kids to a Presbyterian church. It was different but I really enjoyed it. Lots of older people. We went to the first service as opposed tot he more traditional service later in the morning.

Came home. Tidied the house. Made lunch. Read blogs and now it is time for a nap. Ahhh...Nothing like a Sunday afternoon nap.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

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Worked today. No interesting clients. Came home. Did dishes. Sometimes I think it would be easier to throw all the dishes out and just buy new ones. I think I am going to save up for a dishwasher now that I am working. Since I have a bad habit of letting the dishes go until they have their own eco-system it would probably be a wise investment.

Most exciting event of the year! The new phone book came out! What is the first thing you check when you get the new phone book? I once asked a boyfriend if he checks for his name and he told me he doesn't. He is either a liar or a nut-case. What kind of person doesn't check for their friggen name? A weird one that's who.

So that is the depth of my day. If it wasn't for the phone book coming out I would have not even bothered to blog.

Friday, April 15, 2005

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I had no idea that not shaving my legs for 4 months would be such a popular post! I am already regretting it because the hair is already growing back. I will probably let them go now until summer. Yeah. I am so chic.

Took Girl-N to her hearing test today. You get to go into this very neat sound-proof room where you can't hear anything. I wish I had a bedroom like that. I could lock out That Cat and I could sleep and sleep whilst he feels sorry for himself outside my bedroom door. I know when I finally did wake up it would be pay back time and he would try to trip me by weaving in between my legs while I walk. (Girl-N has perfect hearing if you care to know about that.)

You know you are old and boring when you post about coupons. I had to buy some Polysporin for Girl-N's pierced ears and I had a $3.00 off coupon! Whooo hoooo! My coupons rarely coincide with something I actually need.

Boy-W has a science fair project due. We are doing this. Will let you know how it goes! Boy-W is a very smart kid and this is far too easy for him but we didn't have enough time to prepare like last year's project. However this is just the classroom science fair and the school is yet to come. Any idea's for that one?

Thursday, April 14, 2005

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That Cat did not let me sleep in. I woke up around 7:30 to go to the bathroom and was going to crawl back to bed and That Cat decided I should be up. I finally had to banish him to the laundry room but by then I was wide awake.

I took Girl-N to get her ears pierced today. A very monumental day for a mother and a daughter. She choose a lovely classic pink stone. She makes the earrings look beautiful.

My place is such a mess. I have always been a messie. It is not as messy as it used to be but it is getting bad. I can go to my mom and dad's and clean their place but I just don't have the energy or the desire to clean my own place. It is funner to clean someone else's house. (I know funner is not a word but it should be!)

I am trying to lose weight but to no avail. All my clothes are tight and frankly it is depressing. I eat fairly well but I have a desk job and don't get much of a chance to get moving.


A Few Hours Later at Barbara's House... I decided to shave my hairy legs tonight. I have not shaved then since December 18th. I know that was the day because it was my staff Christmas party. What has become of me? I used to shave my legs 3 times a week. Now I am trying to see if I can go a whole year without anyone noticing.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

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Worked overtime. Bah. Went to see my mom who is now quite ill from the chemo. We had a nice visit while she laid on her couch all thin and bald and not looking at all like my mom. Her spirit is still the same though so it was a wonderful visit. Have I mentioned before what a extremely wonderful soul my mom is?
I am tired now so I am going to go have a hot bath. The kidlets are at their dads so that means I can sleep in tomorrow! Sleep in I tell you! Sleep in! I am very excited. It That Cat wakes me up before I wake up naturally you will hear about it.

Monday, April 11, 2005

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Desiderata. The meaning of desiderata is something desired as essential. This was written almost 100 years ago. When you have time read it slowly.

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly;and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others,you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copywright 1927
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A Spiritual Look at Mondays

One more Monday gone. Here is an interesting thought on Monday's though. We all get very excited when Friday comes around because the weekend is coming. We think that because it is the last day of the work week it will be better than the first day. But why? Why can't Friday be a day that is just as fun as Monday? It is because we have programmed our minds to thinking a Friday is better. The fact is every day of the week can be a good one. We just need to change how we think. I have tried to do this and it has made my Mondays a lot easier to deal with. Remember, something fantastic and wonderful can happen just as easily on a Monday as a Friday!

Smoke detector just went off. It goes off every night at this time. Not because I burn things but because it is super sensitive. Just the smell of food makes it go off. I live in a condo and I am sure my neighbors wonder about me and my culinary arts.

I am going to go vacuum. BRB. Okay done. Aren't I just the Suzy Homemaker today? Making a meal and vacuuming in the same week! I will need to take it easy for the next few days I think. Possibly call into work while I recover from the exertion.

That is all. Going to go read all of your blogs now!
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I never get a chance to post before work. I could have spent this extra time sleeping! Have I ever mentioned I am not a morning person? I am off to work. A stop at Tim Horton's is going to be a must for an extra large french vanilla!
I am not sure what the point of that e mail thing is under my posts now. Will try it after work. Byeeeeeeee for now.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

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Another lazy Sunday passes. I like Sundays because they are lazy. You can stay in your pajamas all afternoon and nobody cares. I did get dressed today around 1:00 and then it was into baggy sweat pants and a polar fleece sweater. The big part of the day was getting a few groceries. I walked to the grocery store because the price of gas is out of this world. (99.9 L / 4.00 G) Walking is a good thing though so I shouldn't gripe. It was a lovely spring rain and I was glad to get out.

Well, the bed sheets are changed and I have had a hot bath. My Sunday ritual is a must to start the new week off. I am going to bed. Have a wonderful week everyone!

Saturday, April 09, 2005

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Today's post is to my woman readers. May each day bring you closer to self-awareness. I hope that each day you grow stronger emotionally and closer to that strong woman that resides in each and every one of us. She is not the woman on the front of a magazine but the woman at the grocery store, the mom of that stays at home with her children or the other mom that has taken the courage to move to the other side of the country. She is not the woman that appears each day on the TV screen but the one now retired lady that considers herself old (she's not!). She is the young student completing her PhD, and another that just completed her MBA. She is the single mom that has had her life changed more than she ever though possible by a son and writes letters to him for when he is grown. She is the lady that is seeking her Higher Power once again and the other on a journey of self-discovery. She is the one considering moving to a country on the other side of the world even though she must wonder if what she is doing is right. She is also the woman that wonders if she has grown in another direction from her mate but knows she is still crazy in love with him. She is the single mom that is getting ready to send her daughter off to school; doing what she knows is right even though it causes her heart to ache just a little. She is the woman with cancer that gets up every day and still remains hopeful, optimistic and cheerful and she is the woman that runs for people with cancer. She is that woman that lives with another woman that others whisper questions about but she is not afraid to say, "I am a Lesbian". She is the mom that is going to be a grandma soon and has taken her young daughter back into her home. She is also the pregnant woman that thinks there is something wrong with her because her house is a mess. (She is so Very Normal!). She is also that woman that is trying to lose weight but looks fabulous as she is. And she is the woman watching her Mom being taken away from her in a way worse way than death.
She is liberal. She is conservative. Her children are her life. She doesn't want children. She is large. She is petite. She loves chocolate. She hates vegetable but eats them because the kids are watching. In each of these woman is a small part that each of us want to become. She is strong. She is courageous. She is a woman!
Ever close your eyes?
Ever stop and listen?
Ever feel alive
and you've nothing missing?
You don't need a reason
let the day go on and on!

Let the rain fall down
everywhere around you
give into it now
let the day surround you
you don't need a reason
let the rain go on and on!

What a day what a day to take to
what a way what a way
to make it through
what a day what a day
to take to a wild child!

Only take the time
from the helter skelter
Every day you find
everything's in kilter
You don't need a reason
let the day go on and on!

Every summer sun
Every winter evening
Every spring to come
Every autumn leaving
You don't need a reason,
let it all go on and on!

What a day what a day to take to
what a way what a way
to make it through
what a day what a day
to take to a wild child!
(Daily Yay! I just had hit # 5,000! YAY!)
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The characters in the pictures are Alligator Al, Aunt Bird and Casey and Finnegan with Mr. Dressup. Along with the Friendly Giant are Jerome the Giraffe and Rusty the Rooster who lived in a bag on the wall. "One little chair for one of you, and a bigger chair for two to curl up in, and for someone who likes to rock, a rocking chair in the middle." Then: "Look up, look wa-a-ay up…"

Friday, April 08, 2005

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Growing up Canadian!
You know you are Canadian when you know who are in the following pictures are. They are great memories are they not? Extra points if you know all the characters in the second and third picture!

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I am glad we set the clocks back. It is 7:33 and it is still warm and sunny. Ahhhh, spring! There are trees and flowers in bloom everywhere. The air smells like maple trees and daffodils. I live in the best part of the world. My fellow Pacific Northwesterners will agree. It is paradise!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

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Shoulder not as sore as yesterday but still hurts. I would go to the doctor but I am working straight through until Sunday. Even if I did go to the drop-in clinic I won't be able to get anything stronger than Ibuprofen or Tylenol because I am allergic to Codeine. Bah!

The cat situation worsens. His new thing is sneaking out the door and running as fast as he can down the hallway of my building. He can run very, very fast. He runs all the way down to one and end back again. He slows down just enough for me to almost catch him then takes off again. Then he laughs at me. I say it is time to get out the spray bottle!

Oh! Very good news! I got my car back today that broke down in January. It needed a new transmission. $$$$$$! It is a 16 year old Mazda and up until the transmission issue I had never had a problem with it. It has run perfect so I figured it would be a good idea to just fix it then to buy a new one. I can't believe I have a car that old but it really has been a great car.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

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I am so sore today it hurts to even move my computer mouse. If I sit very still I am ok but the minute I move my right arm I am in pain again.

I have a question. Why does Angus insist on standing right in front of me while I type? I think I know the reason. Cats are evil and they need to create small problems in our lives. I think Angus feels like he has accomplished some greater plan when he does small things to slow down the natural progress of my day. He likes to stand in the bathroom doorway so I can't shut the door. He places himself on the bathroom vanity when I try to get ready in the morning. He wakes me up early and keeps me awake in middle of the night. The rest of the day he spends sleeping on my favourite places to sit. I have heard stories about your cats and they are similar. We allow them to bite and scratch us for goodness sake! If it was a dog we would have him put to sleep. However, we keep loving the beasts and buying them kitty treats.

Sometimes I think my cat is smarter than I. Think about it. He doesn't have a job but he has never seen the bottom of his food dish. He sleeps all day, stays up most of the night playing and creating havoc. He isn't expected to do a single thing!

I have posted this before but I think it bears repeating.

DAY 752 –My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while I am forced to eat dry cereal. The only thing that keeps me going is the hope of escape, and the mild satisfaction I get from ruining the occasional piece of furniture. Tomorrow I may eat another houseplant.

DAY 761 –Today my attempt to kill my captors by weaving around their feet while they were walking almost succeeded, must try this at the top of the stairs. In an attempt to disgust and repulse these vile oppressors, I once again induced myself to vomit on their favorite chair...must try this on their bed.

DAY 762 –Slept all day so that I could annoy my captors with sleep depriving, incessant pleas for food at ungodly hours of the night.

DAY 765 –Decapitated a mouse and brought them the headless body, in attempt to make them aware of what I am capable of, and to try to strike fear into their hearts. They only cooed and condescended about what a good little cat I was. Hmmm.... Not working according to plan.

DAY 768 –I am finally aware of how sadistic they are. For no good reason I was chosen for the water torture. This time however it included a burning foamy chemical called "shampoo." What sick minds could invent such a liquid? My only consolation is the piece of thumb still stuck between my teeth.

DAY 771 –There was some sort of gathering of their accomplices. I was placed in solitary throughout the event. However, I could hear the noise and smell the foul odor of the glass tubes they call "beer." More importantly, I overheard that my confinement was due to MY power of allergies." Must learn what this is and how to use it to my advantage.

DAY 774 –I am convinced the other captives are flunkies and may be snitches. The dog is routinely released and seems more than happy to return. He is obviously a half-wit. The bird on the other hand has got to be an informant. He has mastered their frightful tongue and speaks with them regularly. I am certain he reports my every move. Due to his current placement in the metal room his safety is assured. But I can wait. It is only a matter of time.................

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

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Update- I had gone to bed earlier this evening and with a sore shoulder. I am up now with a very sore neck and stiff right shoulder. I think I may have actaully injured myself on the slipper slope. It still is funny though but oucheewaawaa I am sore!
So you all thought my tumble down the slope was funny huh? It really was actually. When I got home last night after work I took a look at the pants I was wearing and they were totally covered with mud. I noticed my cute pink backpack was too. I thought if I washed it, it might fall apart. I did wash it and it is as good as new. I know. It means nothing but I really, really like this backpack. Funny the things we grow attached to.

My feet are like ice cubes so I am off to have a bath.


Monday, April 04, 2005

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I am feeling a little better today. Thank you for all your comments. It means so much!

Amusing (I can't use the word "funny") story. I head out the door this morning to go to work. I was wearing black dress pants, dress shoes etc. I was walking down a long but not too steep hill at the back of my condo when I slipped all the way down. I was covered with mud and grass. I am sure if anyone saw me at this point they would have seen me mouth the same word hockey players use when they are angry. You know the word. You are watching them after they get a penalty and as they sit down in the penalty box you see their mouth form the "F---". I had to say it. Even though nobody was around it seemed very appropriate. I had to rush back inside and change my shoes, socks, pants, jacket etc. It wasn't funny at the time. However looking outside I can see a long streak on the hill. Harrumph!

Sunday, April 03, 2005

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I woke up this morning feeling totally disconnected with myself. Actually I have felt this way over the last few days. I have been drowning. I have slipped into a depression but I am not sure why. If I know perhaps I would know which way was out.

So many things have piled up and I don't know where to begin. My mom and a cancer diagnosis seems surreal. The student loan people have called me at least twice a day for the last year. I am a single mom making $9.50 an hour. I still grieve so desperately for my Nana. Honestly, I feel like I have been thrown into a world where I must be an adult and I don't know how.

I am going through a divorce. Something I rarely talk about here. My ex has said unless I pay him $5, 000 in cash he will not sign any legal papers. He says I should pay his student loan off as well as $1, 200 that he was forced to pay by the Canadian government for child support. Unless I pay him this money he will force me into to sell my home. I try hard not to hate him because know it is not what God would want. I have never not allowed him to see the kids. In fact he makes the schedule each month of when and how much he will see them. He has not worked in close to a year and says he can't afford to feed the kids so they either eat before they go or after they come home from his place or I send their dinner along. I have never done a single thing in spite and yet he still treats me like shit. I cannot afford a lawyer and there isn't any legal-aide in British Columbia.

My boss is a bitch. She yells and belittles me in front of clients and co-workers.

Is this all just underlying stress from everything going on with my mom? Is life really as shitty as it feels tonight or do I just have PMS.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

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Update- I just read that Pope John Paul II has passed away. I started to cry when I read the news. ( I am not Catholic) It is sad that so many people are passing on that have stood up for what is right and good.

I went out today in spite of a cold. I shouldn't have because I felt tired all day long. We did go to the Victoria Bug Zoo. I got to hold a scorpion, a Madagascar Hissing Cockroach, a centipede about 8 inches long, a tarantula and various stick insects. It was lots of fun!

We also went to Beacon Hill Park to feed the ducks but I was shivering I was so cold we didn't stay long. On the way we played "punch buggy" (also called slub bug). I won with a total of 11.

I am now of to bed. Sleep well blogging friends.
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(Achoo!) Excuse me. I hab a cowd. (cough, cough, cough)

Even so I am going out today. Possibly going to Victoria. Just going to buy a large bag of duck food and go feed the ducks at Beacon Hill Park.

I finished the notes of love for my mom. I am just waiting for the last of the stragglers to send in their but so far I have collected about 135. They look so nice all rolled up in the coloured ribbon. I wanted to take a picture of them but the digital camera is broken.

I am off. The kidlets are fighting over a jug of syrup. This could end in disaster...
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